Does God even care with my pains?

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I’m hurt.

Its painful.

I’m frustrated.

I’m disappointed.

I’m broken.

There are times that feeling “okay”is the only thing we could do to escape all the brokenness that we feel. Sometimes we are just enduring all the pains and hurts because we know that this will just pass and someday we will be healed with all the unwavering, repetitious pains that we have.

Does God really knows how I’m feeling, or does he even care with my pains and hurts?

The truth is, God does cares. He knows every pain that you have. He is hurt more than what you felt. He wants to hug you everytime you are crying. He is there to wipe every tears that are falling from your eyes.

Sometimes, it is us who forgets, who rejects God because we are too much focused on the hurts that we have. We are busy on enduring the pains and forget that we can share our brokenness with the Lord. We tend to be on our own ways and dont depend with others.

The good thing is God never gave up on us. Despite of our rejections, He never stops on loving us. He wants to feel every pain that you are enduring. He wants to share in your brokenness until the hurts will be gone. God really cares about you and that will never change.

Lord, embrace me in my most difficult moments. Always remind me that in every hurts that I have, You are there to comfort me. I know that you will not leave me and always there to also endure the pains that I have. Thank you for always loving me even though that there are times that I’m rejecting you. Thank you for being there even in the most silent moments in my life.

MAYTINIS 2015

Every December 24, the Kawitenos are excited to watch and celebrate the Maytinis Festival. Maytinis came from a Latin word “Matins”which means a prayer that has been offered to give glory and praise to the Lord. Every year, each baranggay in Kawit has prepared a float that signifies a story in a bible.

Below are some of the floats that joined the parade of this year Maytinis Festival.

Eba’t Adan

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Ruth and Noemi

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Moses

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Inang Pilipinas 20151224_205507

Haring David

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Samson and Delilah

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Infanta Judith

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Reyna Ester

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Pagbati

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Pagdalaw

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La Purisima Concepcion

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Si Noah at ang Baha

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Panunuluyan

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Pangako ng Diyos kay Zacarias

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Merry Christmas Friends

My journey to Palawan Part 1 (YFC PRE ICON)

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Its time to comeback here in my blog. I just want to share to you my journey in Palawan. It will be divided into three parts: the YFC Pre Icon, the ICON proper an the Star Shout. All I can say that my 15 days of stay in Palawan is really an awesome experience. I will always cherish the moments that I had in this place.

April 1 (God is enough indeed)
My flight going to Palawan is 2:55pm and i struggled a lot before going to the airport because I dont have enough money for my fare going to the airport. Praise God for Ate tin who lend me money so I can go the airport. I arrived at the airport around 2:10pm and im quite nervous that i will not be able to meet my scheduled flight but praise God our flight is delayed and they allowed me to check in even though im late. In the pre departure area, i am surprised that I saw some of my yfc friends and even surprised tht we are on the same flight. Im excited because it is my first time to ride an airplane. The Lord is indeed faithful to His promise that He will bring me to the places to experience His love through land, water and air. Last year, ive experienced riding a roro (small ship) going to marinduque. I also experienced a 12 hour trip riding a bus going to bicol. When we arrived at the airport, kuya julius welcome us and let us ride to the tricycle going to the accomodation site of the social action. After arriving at the accomodation site, i had some chat with ate libay to orient me with what had happened at the day 1 of social action. Then suddenly, kuya ghamay talked to me if i can lead the evening worship that night. Im quite shock because im not prepared but the Lord just used me that night and i know it is Him who speak to me that night. Then a session was followed led by ate jajet. She talked about how blessed we are and how can we be a blessing to others.
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April 2 (Be the Hope of the New Generation)
Our 2nd day is the greeneration day. We have an early wake up call because we have to go the pond to plant some propagules (i dont know the spelling,haha). By the way, i dont have yet a group by that time. After planting 600 mangroves, we go to the other beach to do the coastal clean up. Before doing the coastal clean up, i am assigned to join the group of lucky 7 (the most coordinated group ever). We had finished early the coastal clean up so the rest of the time is for us to have a fellowship. It’s also my time to get to know the other members of the group. Im blessed to have this group. They are accomodating as well. By the way, our group was composed by kuya rundolph (team leader), kuya buboy, maynard, lozel, rusty, pattia (who is always missing), karla, regine, karissa, jeff, florence, mykko, and mae. During our lunch, we had a boodle fight having lechon, dinuguan and rice as our meals. After the lunch, we have a teambuilding activity called 360 wherein we have to flip the apple of the eye in 360 degrees while she’s holding a glass of water. There are many realizations in that activity. One thing that strikes me in that activity is about entrusting and trusting our members. After spending the day in the beach, we go back to the main venue to have our evening session wherein kuya djong is te speaker. He talks about the hope that God is always giving us despite of the realities that we are suffering.
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April 3 (breaking free from our barriers)
For this day, our activity is a prison visit then a city tour where we will conduct our RAK (Random Act of Kindness). For the prison visit, we go the IWAHIG Prison. This is a prison where the prisoners can live just like a normal civilian because there are no bars here just like in the other prison. We had an immersion with some of the prisoners and have some sharings with them. We learned a lot from them. Despite of their current situation, they still have hope in their life and their faith in God just go deeper. After the prisit vison, we had a city tour. We go to the Mitra’s ranch, bakers hill, Immaculate Concepcion Cathedral, and the baywalk. We were also tasked to do our RAK individually. In the baywalk, we have instant flash mob when the SA dance crace surprisely played and all we have to do is to just dance. After a long day, we go back to the main venue and had our last session. In this night also i was able to share my realizations during that day. Our last session was led by kuya ghamay. wpid-859249_10202584328948178_2924827383193964462_o.jpg

All in all, my social actions experience was indeed very awesome. Actually it is not in my plan to attend the pre icon but since kuya pogs already registered me, i just attend it. I never imagined that i will learned a lot in this activity but praise God He let me experienced first hand His greatness in Palawan. I also thank the Lord for giving me new friends, the Lucky 7. We maybe far away from each other but i know in our prayers we are united. You wilalways be a big part in my heart lucky 7. Maraming salamat.
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John Victor M. Monzon, CPA

He must increase, I must decrease

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Jan. 11 Gospel: John 3:22-30
Jesus and his disciples went into the region of Judea, where he spent some time with them baptizing. John was also baptizing in Aenon near Salim, because there was an abundance of water there, and people came to be baptized, for John had not yet been imprisoned. Now a dispute arose between the disciples of John and a Jew about ceremonial washings. So they came to John and said to
him, “Rabbi, the one who was with you across the Jordan, to whom you testified, here he is baptizing and everyone is coming to him.” John answered and said, “No one can receive anything except what has been given from heaven. You yourselves can testify that I said that I am not the Christ, but that I was sent before him. The one who has the bride is the bridegroom; the best man, who stands and listens for him, rejoices greatly at the bridegroom’s voice. So this joy of mine has been made complete. He must increase; I must decrease.”

Reflection:
In today’s gospel, it shows on how humble John is. John is humble enough to acknowledge his annointment. Despite he has a numbers of followers who wants to be baptize by him, he doesnt became envious to Jesus who started to baptize people also. He knows that Jesus is the one who has sent by God the father and he is the one who has the mission to paved the way for the son of God.

In today’s world, we have the tendency to be competitive with our fellow co-workers, friends or family. We want to be more famous than the others so that we do everything to be on top even if it means degrading others. We want the good things that have done will always be credited to our name.
May we have a humble heart like John who knows that all the things that he do should be always glorify God and not him. Just like what John has said, “He must increase, I must decrease”.

“Lord, grant us a humble heart who only seeks to glorify you and not us”

John Victor M. Monzon, CPA

MAYTINIS FESTIVAL 2013: A Kawitenos Pride

Maytinis Festival is a well loved tradition of Cavitenos which happens every 24th day of December in Kawit. It is a float parade of different stories in the bible, from the creation of the earth to the birth of Jesus. Each float is represented by the different baranggays in Kawit.According to history, Maytinis is a tradition introduced by the spaniards to the people of Kawit many years ago. It was a way of evangelization to the non-catholics that time. Since the people during that time is not yet educated, they used the Maytinis so that they can visualize the stories in the bible through the floats. this year St. Joseph’s role was portrayed by a social media star, MIGZ HALECO

Here are some pics of the floats in Maytinis.

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John Victor M. Monzon, CPA

Maghintay at Umibig

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Kapag tinatanong ako dati kung ano ba ang gusto ko sa isang babae, ang sinasagot ko ay dapat:

1. Matalino

2. Magaling kumanta at sumayaw

3. Maganda

kapag ang isang babae meron nitong mga katangian na ito, mdalas akong mabilis ma-fall sa kanya. eto ang konsepto ko ng pagmamahal dati. i used to love a girl because of her characteristics. i thought ito yung dapat kong maging reasons kpag tinatanong kung bakit ko sya minamahal. tulad ng ibang kabataan, i tend to have a cheap definition of LOVE, na kapag gusto ko sya, love na yun. kaya kapag nagbrebreak o nagkakaLQ(Love Quarrel) ay mabilis tayong masaktan kasi nga we have a cheap foundation of our relationship. Because of that concept of love, i never had a long term relationship with my previous partners. Nakadepende kasi lahat sa kung anong tingin kong dapat o mga standards ko para sa isang relasyon.

Pero habang tumatagal natutunan ko na hindi magpadalos dalos sa paghahanap ng isang minamahal. natutunan kong di magset ng standards para sa babaeng inilaan sakin ng Diyos.

UMIBIG BAGO MAGHINTAY

Dati ang ginagawa ko ay pinagdadasal ko ang babaeng gusto ko at sinasabi ko na handa akong hintayin sya hanggang sa dumating na yung time na inilaan ng Diyos para sa amin. pero pano kung hindi pala sya yung inihanda ng Diyos para sayo? Nung time na may pinagdasal akong isang babae, naging specific ako na sana maging kame at handa akong maghintay hanggang sa dumating yung time na magiging kame. Akala ko nung mga panahon na yun ay sya na talaga yung ibinigay ng Diyos sa akin. Pero in the end, sa ibang lalake sya napunta. Nasaktan ako pero doon ko narealize na di lahat ng akala natin na para sa atin ay magiging atin. yung plano pa rin ng Diyos ang masusunod.

MAGHINTAY BAGO UMIBIG

This time, i told myself to wait without expectation. to wait patiently for the best girl that God has prepared for me. Natuto akong maghintay para sa babaeng hindi ko alam kung sino. Natuto akong ipagdasal na habang prineprepare ako ng Diyos na maging best man for her ay prineprepare nya rin ito para maging best girl for me. Truly, the Lord never fails to give us the best plans for us. Kung di siguro ako natutong maghintay bago umibig ay marahil di ko nakilala ang best girl that God had prepared for me.

(Written January 13,2013)

Worry vs Faith

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Worry see the problem, butfaith sees God.

Sometimes, we tend to worry too much about the things that we want. We want that everything goes on our way. In these moments, we forgot that there is God who never fails to be good to us, to provide the desires of our heart. May i share to you this verse coming from Matthew 6:34:

“Do not worry about tomorrow; tomorrow will take care of itself. Sufficient for a day is its own evil.”

Lord, may You always remind us that we dont have to worry because everything will work according to Your will. All we have to do is to put our trust and faith to You.

John Victor M. Monzon, CPA

It’s all because of His love

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Days before the PYC, isang kanta lang yung lage kong pnapatugtog sa phone ko, eto yung kantang a thousand years ni kristina perry pero version n boyce avenue. I have so many doubts and worries about my sharing. But through this song, i was reminded that the Lord had loved me for thousand years and it will never end. The people may not accept but still the Lord will remain beside me. He will continue to love me despite o the sins that i have done from the past. So here’s the lyrics of that song.

A thousand years

(Verse 1)
Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I’m afraid
To fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt
Suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer
(Chorus)
I have died every day
waiting for you
Darlin’ don’t be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I’ll love you for a
Thousand more
(Verse 2)
Time stands still
beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything
Take away
What’s standing in front of me
Every breath,
Every hour has come to this
One step closer
(Chorus)
I have died every day
Waiting for you
Darlin’ don’t be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I’ll love you for a
Thousand more
And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I’ll love you for a
Thousand more
One step closer
One step closer
(Chorus)
I have died every day
Waiting for you
Darlin’ don’t be afraid,
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I’ll love you for a
Thousand more
And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I’ll love you for a
Thousand more

Truly the Lord loves me and each one of us. We may not always recognize His love but He will still unconditionally love us despite of our past and current sins that we have. And because of this Love, i will always be fearless in proclaiming His love to other people.

John Victor M. Monzon, CPA

Legacy… my pyc experience

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Praise God for the 18th Provincial Youth Conference of YFC Cavite.. indeed it was very victorious with 2316 yfc who attended to that conference. This pyc became one of the most personal conference in my journey…

I was discerned to be one of the sharers for session 2 on how I experienced God’s love through other people. Eto na po yata yung isa sa pnkamahirap na sharing n gagawin ko dahil sa hirap ng ilang libong tao, you will share your story with them. Pero sabi nga ni te maan, kapag naging mv ka dapat masanay ka ng maging open book ang buhay mo sa ibang tao. Okay, back to my sharing, i find it hard to share that part of me kasi feeling ko di maaabsorb ng mga taong makikinig sakin. It is something kasi na unusual sa mga sharing ng mga yfc n kadalasan tungkol sa family at studies. Di ko din alam kung may makikinig sakin at matatanggap pa nila ako after that sharing. But the Lord just remind me na it is about time to share that kasi baka may mga taong makarelate o kasalukuyang struggle pa rin dun..

During the mass, while singing the our father, my heart melts and tears suddenly fall down. I felt that God is really talking with me that time and saying that my child, dont be afraid because i am with you.

After the mass, prinayover na kame kasi magstart n ang session 2. Naiiyak pa rin ako, naghalo na yung takot at kaba. And when the session start, parang ambilis ng oras nung nasa backstage kame. Di yun dahil sa mabilis magsalita si ate maan pero ewan ko ba.hoho.. nauna na sakin magshare sila clah at julie. And when its my turn, kinabahan ako ng todo. Nung lumabas ako sa stage, halos nagpalakpakan ang lahat ng tao dun, napatigil ako at sinabi sa sarili ko “kaya ko ba ito? Halos lahat sila kilala ako.”  Di ako nkapagsalita nang ilang segundo and then i whisper to the Lord, please be with me, guide me. And then nagumpisa na akong magsalita. Nang nasabi ko na ang secind line ko, parang tumigil an mundo ng lahat. Maraming nagulat at nabigla. Halos ayoko n sundan pa ang mga nasabi ko pero it is the Lord who spoke to me that time. Naramdaman ko na hindi na ako ang nagsasalita nung time kasi kung ako lang yun alam kong di ko kaya but it is through God’s grace, i was able to finish my sharing. I know He is with me.

I am JV MONZON, former sectorhead of sector 1 and now the mission volunteer of Cavite. I am for Christ because I am from Christ

John Victor M. Monzon, CPA